The Ups and Downs for Me...Finding a Balance...

11:16pm  Tonight got to go to Brooklan's softball game and tomorrow will get to go to Aili's. So thankful for this and it was so nice to get out and see a few people, those who have been supporting us in our little community. However when we got home it just really hit me. I want our baby girl to be with us at the games, too!! :( It's so hard trying to find a balance between being there for Avelyn and being there for her big sisters, too. Right now I am trying to spend the day with Avelyn while the girls are in school, then get home in the evening to be with Brooklan and Aili too. I miss my early morning and late night times with Ave, like we were able to have more easily while in the hospital.--It was just so much quieter and I had more time with just our baby girl, less meetings and distractions surrounding us. Praying God helps me find that balance. Wishing we could be in two places at once...