I knew this day was coming. For the past couple weeks, I knew it was coming. But tonight it is really hitting me hard. I head back to work tomorrow; today it's been 8 weeks since Avelyn was born and I was planning to take 12 weeks off. I decided a couple weeks ago to go ahead and start back after just 8 weeks and I'm sure being at work will be fine.--It will be good to see my co-workers and I think the routine will be good for me. But tonight I'm so sad, bitter, and angry.--I'm not supposed to even be thinking about this right now. I'm supposed to be holding my baby girl and spending another 4 weeks with her before I head back to work. It breaks my heart I'm not able to do this. I miss her so much and I want to be holding her and spending time with her. I will only work one day this week, then will start my 3 days per week next week. Please be praying for strength for me these next 4 weeks as I will be working instead of being home with my precious baby girl. Thank you!!