10:50 pm As I sat today eating a late lunch, the song 'Overcomer' by Mandisa came on. Everytime I hear this song, it takes me back to those few, too short, days I spent with our baby girl. Shortly after I was released from the hospital and could no longer sleep just down the hall from Avelyn, I was at home and late one night I was having a hard time. As I sat there, everyone else already asleep, God told me to turn on the radio. As I scanned the Christian radio stations, the song 'Overcomer' came on. I believe I have mentioned it before, but this song really resonated with me...and I NEEDED to hear it--at that moment because of the line "cause God is holdin' you right now." I wasn't holding my baby girl at that moment, but God wanted me to know that He was!! :) After this moment, I began singing this song to Avelyn, probably multiple times per day. She was our 'Overcomer.' A fighter. Giving it all she had. If you haven't heard the song, I encourage you to listen to it. :)
As I sat at our kitchen table today, I heard our baby girl singing this same song to me. Roles reversed. Now my 4 month old is singing to me. :) The song I had sang to her so many times, she was now singing to me...now it's her song to me. God is holding me and will help get us through this tough, wishing no one ever had to go through this, situation.
"You're an overcomer. Stay in the fight til the final round. You're not goin' under, cause God is holdin' you right now. You might be down for a moment, feeling like it's hopeless, that's when He reminds you, you're an overcomer."
I went to a new bible study series tonight. I'm excited about it; it's going to be a great one (not that any of them are bad)...but I just think it's coming at a good time in my life's circumstances (don't they all??). :) After I got home and was thinking about the study, I realized, 'I've gotta keep up with my daughter. She's so much wiser than me. She knows all of this already...my 4 month old daughter knows so much more than her Mommy. As I thought about this, I don't know if this crossed my mind because it was like a challenge to me, a motivation for me, a way to feel like I am getting not only closer to God but also closer to our daughter, or just a way to make me smile -knowing my daughter is with God and knows Him SO well now. :)
I now truly see our daughter as our guardian angel. Just as God does, she is looking out for us, taking care of us, telling me I am an 'Overcomer,' telling me...motivating me to get into God's Word more. I am so thankful I am able to feel her, to hear her in things like this, as well as continue to see her in God's beautiful world.
Thank you my precious daughter. I love you SO much. I pray I am able to keep my eyes and ears open to moments like this, as I sense you, God, and His Holy Spirit. Hugs and kisses and squeezes to you.
As I sat at our kitchen table today, I heard our baby girl singing this same song to me. Roles reversed. Now my 4 month old is singing to me. :) The song I had sang to her so many times, she was now singing to me...now it's her song to me. God is holding me and will help get us through this tough, wishing no one ever had to go through this, situation.
"You're an overcomer. Stay in the fight til the final round. You're not goin' under, cause God is holdin' you right now. You might be down for a moment, feeling like it's hopeless, that's when He reminds you, you're an overcomer."
I went to a new bible study series tonight. I'm excited about it; it's going to be a great one (not that any of them are bad)...but I just think it's coming at a good time in my life's circumstances (don't they all??). :) After I got home and was thinking about the study, I realized, 'I've gotta keep up with my daughter. She's so much wiser than me. She knows all of this already...my 4 month old daughter knows so much more than her Mommy. As I thought about this, I don't know if this crossed my mind because it was like a challenge to me, a motivation for me, a way to feel like I am getting not only closer to God but also closer to our daughter, or just a way to make me smile -knowing my daughter is with God and knows Him SO well now. :)
I now truly see our daughter as our guardian angel. Just as God does, she is looking out for us, taking care of us, telling me I am an 'Overcomer,' telling me...motivating me to get into God's Word more. I am so thankful I am able to feel her, to hear her in things like this, as well as continue to see her in God's beautiful world.
Thank you my precious daughter. I love you SO much. I pray I am able to keep my eyes and ears open to moments like this, as I sense you, God, and His Holy Spirit. Hugs and kisses and squeezes to you.
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